About Dream, Teenager life, and Saphomore

Hello guyssss!!!! 

Long times no update! Miss U all! Sorry for my late update! Kkkk~ >< *bow*

Lately I’ve been busy with my last examination, I’ve to study more, and that means no Internet connection! Darn. =3=

Anyway, I’ve finished that all. And now, I already get my results and it all worth my sacrifice. Thanks to God.

Kkkk~ I’m the 9^th rank of my grade. Not that good, but still… it worth everything!

Okay. Off to the next rambling. XD

I’m on my sophomore year now! Oh God. I’m so happy. I still remember every detail when I was on my first day in the high school. What a sweet memories of the junior year~

I think all of you have been into high school. Right? Kkkk~

What’s your sweetest memory in High school years?

Yeah. This is the reality of teenager life. Love sickness, jealousy, pissed off because one-of-the-teacher-darn-friggin’-hate-me-even-when-I-didn’t-do-anything-wrong, met your-not-so-called-enemy, friendship with favor, real friendship, handsome boys *school jock*, nerd, hall of fame star, smart students, school athlete, one sided love, fangirling over a boy band, watching a concert, playing music, go on date, pretty-girl-with-dumbass, an-actress-or-actor-wannabe, a super model wannabe, tomboy girl, innocent and slowpoke one, School’s Casanova, joke maker, silly boys, hyper one, and that’ ssooooooooooooooo much on!!

Don’t tell me you never experienced at least one of that many things when you’re still teenager. Whenever, wherever you are. Man! This is teenager life. But, yeah, depends on your school credits and your motivation. But, I know, even a nerd have this experience. Kkkk~

*FYI, I’m not a nerd, absolutely not. But I am NOT a popular one too. I’m… rare species. Kkkk~*

Sometimes, when I look back at my younger photos *when I’m still in Junior High School*, and I looked at the mirror in my bathroom, I compared my own self. And I’m begun to think.

“This is me. Myself. Hello there. Oh. I’m getting old soon. I know life had been hard on you. But it’s not the real problems.” I paused for a moment, and thinking again. I pointed at my own reflection. “Hey you! Youngster! My way is still long. This problem you faced is nothing compared to next. Older we were, more difficult the problem was.”

I don’t want to commit any suicide attempt when I’m older. That’s a super coward way to end their misery. What a fool and…. a waste of life. Don’t they know how beautiful life is?

“See? I’m getting old here. I don’t live in memories. I’m not getting any younger. I don’t live forever. *thinking about live forever scared me >3<* It means I have to fulfill my dream as soon as possible. I’m soooo not going backed off because of this little thing. This is my life. Yes. My life. Not others. It depends on me. I have to stand up, even after a hard fall. I have to stay strong. I have to be happy.”

I told my self over and over, “Always look at the bright side. I can do it. I can. I can. I can fulfill my biggest dream. I can. I can. I’m not weak. I’m not weak, and I’m not alone. I’m not alone.”

And that time, I can see my biggest dream. To life my live happily. To find my happiness in everyone’s I loved laughter. I want to cry happily at that thought. But I can’t. Because it just my thought. Not reality. And I HAVE TO REALIZE IT. To make it come true. Oh. How beautiful.

I looked at the mirror and see myself smiling. Well, I’m still young. It’s better to regret what I’ve done now, and got better my self.

I’m on my sophomore year, I will do my best to life my dream to the fullest.

Hey you! Why are you just sitting there in the middle of the road? Get up,  and run as fast as you can! Catch your biggest dream! Live with no regret! kkkk~

And. Don’t forget! Always Look At The Bright Side! Smile! Smile! Be Happy! See you around! XD