Hello! ♥

Hi! Long time no see!

Wew. Udah lama ga buka blog. Berdebu banget! *shock*

Okay. Enough with my useless rambling. Now, here goes my stories~

Ga kerasa sekarang aku sudah 5 bulan duduk di kelas 2 SMA Frater Don Bosco Banjarmasin. Berarti udah hampir 1 setengah tahun aku bersekolah disini. mungkin sudah terlalu banyak cerita yang aku lalui. mulai dari yang tidak menyenangkan sampai yang sangat menyenangkan.

Tapi, aku mulai menyadari bahwa dengan seiringnya waktu aku terus tumbuh dan berkembang. Dari anak-anak yang hanya memiliki mimpi seperti pelangi, menjadi seorang remaja yang terhubung dengan dunianya, dan pada akhirnya menjadi remaja yang mengerti kehidupan dan penuh semangat dan ambisi dalam menjalani hidupnya. Well, dalam hal ini sih hidup gue.

Dalam proses pendewasaan inilah aku mulai mengerti tujuan dari hidup dan maknanya. Menjadi seorang remaja berarti seluruh dunia mulai terbuka dan tersedia untukmu. Apalagi dalam masa tekhnologi di jaman sekarang :D

Menjadi seorang remaja menurut gue sih bukan hanya diam dan menikmati masa muda. Kita harus lebih mengeksplorasi kemampuan dalam diri kita. Lalu, mulai berpandangan kritis dalam menyelesaikan masalah-masalah yang ada di sekitar kita dan peduli pada keadaan sosial.

Well, ga semua orang kok menjalani hal-hal seperti ini. Makanya, gue sadarin. KITA, SEBAGAI GENERASI MUDA BISA MELAKUKAN SEGALANYA, KITA BISA BERJUANG KERAS DAN MULAI BERUSAHA UNTUK MASA DEPAN KITA. Yang masih ngeyel, silahkan lihat masa tua anda, dan jangan menyesal nantinya.

Menghindari penyesalan itu juga adalah hal yang susah ya =3="
Jujur, penyesalan itu pasti ada, entah karena kesalahan kita yang kita perbuat ataupun kesalahan pada kemampuan kita sebagai seorang individu yang individualistis.

Oh ya, dimasa remaja ini emosi kita juga cendrung labil ya~ Apalagi kalau habis putus cinta. Beuh!!!!!!!!

Dunia serasa hilang dan tak bermakna.. *Beuh! Bahasanya! XD*

Belajarlah untuk mengendalikan emosimu dan bersikaplah professional. Patah hati ya patah hati. sekolah dan karir ya... Sekolah dan karir. USAHAKAN jangan pernah mencampuradukan masalah pribadi dengan masalah sekolah. Lucu aja gitu kalo nanti kita gak naek kelas cuma gara" masalah cowok.

Well, have to go now. Need to study for test tomorrow. Wish me luck yee~

Oh ya, besok aku juga harus ikut lomba TIK. Wish me luck juga yeee~ 

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO

2ne1 lyric translations :)

2NE1 Ugly Lyrics English Translation

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2
[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2
[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?
[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror
[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you
[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold facade inside that patronizing gaze suffocates me
[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2
There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side
All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone
There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me
[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly
Translated by GEE @ ygladies.com




[2NE1 - Lonely - English Translation]


[CL Lee Chae-rin]
The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
They’ll probably make you hate me forever
[Minzy 민지]
You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
Source: LYBIO.net
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
[Minzy 민지]
I don’t know
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
I want to find myself now
[Park Bom 박봄]
Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am
[Minzy 민지]
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Source: LYBIO.net
[Park Bom 박봄]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one
It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
[Park Bom 박봄]
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I’m confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
I don’t know
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
I want to find myself now
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am
[Minzy 민지]
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Source: LYBIO.net
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[Minzy 민지]
Cuz I’m just another girl
This night is lonely, I
[Park Bom 박봄]
Can’t take any more, Good bye
[Park Sandara 박산다라 Dara 다라]
Cuz I’m just another girl
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
I’m so lonely
[Park Bom 박봄]
Even though I’m by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely
[Minzy 민지]
Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
[CL Lee Chae-rin]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

2NE1 – Go Away – English Translation

[CL]
You’re so cheap and this isn’t like you
I can’t get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why
Who’s breaking up with who
You’re breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah
[Minzy]
A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who’s breaking up with who
You’re breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah
[CL]
Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Minzy]
Don’t try to console me
Move this hand, we’re strangers now
[Bom]
Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand
[Dara]
I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight
[CL]
Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I’m walkin’ out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That’s my way
I gave it my all, so I don’t have regrets
Pretending like you’re more sad
Pretending you’re cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shit without your crew
I don’t have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don’t want to see your ugly face again no more
[Minzy]
Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Dara]
Don’t try to console me
Move this hand, we’re strangers now
[Bom]
Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand
[Minzy]
I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight
Go go away
Go away
Go away
Go away
[Bom]
Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand
I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Move On - Rain (japanese lyric+translation)

ROMANIZATION:

Mou nakanaide kure yo girl modoru koto nai kare wo matsu kokoro wo tozashite
Boku no me wa itsu demo kimi wo miteru yo furimuite kureru toki made zutto

Move on move on mou yame toki na kare wa modoranai
Open yo heart baby kokoro hiraite

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
Itsu made mo sono hito no kawari ni ite ageru
I will always be right by your side towa no toki wo
Kimi ni yakusoku suru kara

Mune shime tsukerareru kimochi boku mo onaji sa motome au toki yume mite
Kimi no kokoro wo ima umerareru no ga jibun janai no ga tsurai no sa

Move on move on mou yame toki na kare wa modoranai
Open yo heart baby toki wo koete

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
Itsu made mo sono hito no kawari ni ite ageru
I will always be right by your side towa no toki wo
Kimi ni yakusoku suru kara

Kimi no kokoro no sukima ni sotto boku wo mitsukete yo
<kanashimaseru koto wa nai sa>
Kimi wo mamoru yo so give me a chance

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
Itsu made mo sono hito no kawari ni ite ageru
I will always be right by your side towa no toki wo
Kimi ni yakusoku suru kara

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
Itsu made mo sono hito no kawari ni ite ageru
I will always be right by your side towa no toki wo
Kimi ni yakusoku suru kara

TRANSLATION:

When are you going to stop crying
As you wait for someone who isn’t going to come, closing your heart firmly
Why won’t you see me
I’m waiting for you, who is waiting for him

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did

My heart that’s seeing you like this
Is hurting the same way yours is because of that person
My gaze that is watching you
Is the same as your gaze that looks at the seat that person left

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did

Turn around and look at me now, give me a chance too
The scar that person left
I’ll take it upon myself, making up for it forever by your side
So give me a chance

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did

About rain and love poem ♥

Hey there! I’m glad to meet you again. ^^

I am still on my holiday.  So, I have so many times to update this blog. Kkkk~

It’s raining heavily here :) I love rainy days.

How about the weather in your place? :)

Okay, off to next random-absurd-thing.

Do you like rainy days?

I like it, especially the smell of rain. It’s like…. morning dew, a lilac? Uhm… Soil? Kkkk~

I always feel so gloomy and happy about rainy day at the same time. I know, weird me

Well, I have a lot of inspiration hit me today. XD So, this is it. I make some poem. :)

Hope you will like it. :)

Those smiles make me weak

Make my heart beat faster

I can feel my self drowning

Into your brown smiling eyes

The way you laugh heartily

The way you sing so perfectly

The way you dancing passionately

I think I can’t get enough of all

Maybe I’m already falling without my knowing

I’ve loving you from the first time we met

Never had you noticed me though

Cause I’m always hiding all this time

If I can be so honest

I’ll tell you something

You didn’t have to make any effort to love someone

Because… Loving you feels so right and natural

I want to be your ‘the one’

Whose will you share the pain with

Laughter and happiness

Heart and passion

One day…

I believe our path will cross together

And we will meet with this new beginning

In love with each other…

But…

If we never meet on that path

I hope you find your happiness

And I found mine…

This time… before we know our path

I just hope for one thing

Can that beautiful smile

Be mine? 

♥

 

About Dream, Teenager life, and Saphomore

Hello guyssss!!!! 

Long times no update! Miss U all! Sorry for my late update! Kkkk~ >< *bow*

Lately I’ve been busy with my last examination, I’ve to study more, and that means no Internet connection! Darn. =3=

Anyway, I’ve finished that all. And now, I already get my results and it all worth my sacrifice. Thanks to God.

Kkkk~ I’m the 9^th rank of my grade. Not that good, but still… it worth everything!

Okay. Off to the next rambling. XD

I’m on my sophomore year now! Oh God. I’m so happy. I still remember every detail when I was on my first day in the high school. What a sweet memories of the junior year~

I think all of you have been into high school. Right? Kkkk~

What’s your sweetest memory in High school years?

Yeah. This is the reality of teenager life. Love sickness, jealousy, pissed off because one-of-the-teacher-darn-friggin’-hate-me-even-when-I-didn’t-do-anything-wrong, met your-not-so-called-enemy, friendship with favor, real friendship, handsome boys *school jock*, nerd, hall of fame star, smart students, school athlete, one sided love, fangirling over a boy band, watching a concert, playing music, go on date, pretty-girl-with-dumbass, an-actress-or-actor-wannabe, a super model wannabe, tomboy girl, innocent and slowpoke one, School’s Casanova, joke maker, silly boys, hyper one, and that’ ssooooooooooooooo much on!!

Don’t tell me you never experienced at least one of that many things when you’re still teenager. Whenever, wherever you are. Man! This is teenager life. But, yeah, depends on your school credits and your motivation. But, I know, even a nerd have this experience. Kkkk~

*FYI, I’m not a nerd, absolutely not. But I am NOT a popular one too. I’m… rare species. Kkkk~*

Sometimes, when I look back at my younger photos *when I’m still in Junior High School*, and I looked at the mirror in my bathroom, I compared my own self. And I’m begun to think.

“This is me. Myself. Hello there. Oh. I’m getting old soon. I know life had been hard on you. But it’s not the real problems.” I paused for a moment, and thinking again. I pointed at my own reflection. “Hey you! Youngster! My way is still long. This problem you faced is nothing compared to next. Older we were, more difficult the problem was.”

I don’t want to commit any suicide attempt when I’m older. That’s a super coward way to end their misery. What a fool and…. a waste of life. Don’t they know how beautiful life is?

“See? I’m getting old here. I don’t live in memories. I’m not getting any younger. I don’t live forever. *thinking about live forever scared me >3<* It means I have to fulfill my dream as soon as possible. I’m soooo not going backed off because of this little thing. This is my life. Yes. My life. Not others. It depends on me. I have to stand up, even after a hard fall. I have to stay strong. I have to be happy.”

I told my self over and over, “Always look at the bright side. I can do it. I can. I can. I can fulfill my biggest dream. I can. I can. I’m not weak. I’m not weak, and I’m not alone. I’m not alone.”

And that time, I can see my biggest dream. To life my live happily. To find my happiness in everyone’s I loved laughter. I want to cry happily at that thought. But I can’t. Because it just my thought. Not reality. And I HAVE TO REALIZE IT. To make it come true. Oh. How beautiful.

I looked at the mirror and see myself smiling. Well, I’m still young. It’s better to regret what I’ve done now, and got better my self.

I’m on my sophomore year, I will do my best to life my dream to the fullest.

Hey you! Why are you just sitting there in the middle of the road? Get up,  and run as fast as you can! Catch your biggest dream! Live with no regret! kkkk~

And. Don’t forget! Always Look At The Bright Side! Smile! Smile! Be Happy! See you around! XD  

I Can Soar by Kim Jun Su ♥

♥When you said, I…

   Owe you, it was sad

But I see how empty, you are at your core

So there’s no hard feelings

I know that I’m meant for so much more

I gave and did above

What I had to

So forward, no more to prove

I’m free to fly

And that is exactly what I’m gonna do

'Cause I…

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I Can Soar
♥
I know, I can’t go back
To that dark place I’d want
Your love so damn bad
You took from me only,
Blindness, to what I’ve always had
I gave and did above
What I had to
So forward, no more to prove
I’m free to fly
And that is exactly what I’m gonna do
'Cause I…

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

'Cause I…
I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

Listen, I know tomorrow
Holds the key to any sorrow
That’s why it’s all okay
Then, now and always
'Cause I...

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

'Cause I…
I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

I Can Soar
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

My Poem

Poem with DBSk’s Song ^^

Whenever I HUG you, I always feel that you’re MY DESTINY…

Although we BEGIN it STEP BY STEP, Sometimes I BELIEVE…

MY LOVE for you is going ON&ON…

My FOREVER LOVE, I love you THE WAY YOU ARE…

I don’t care about your wealth, all I care is your heart…

LOVIN’ YOU are the most BEAUTIFUL THING  I  ever do…

I want to SHARE THIS WORLD with you..

With our ONE love,

We can make a sweet MELODY AND HARMONY… TOGETHER….

My HEART, MIND, AND SOUL…

Please ignore WHATEVER THEY SAY about our love…

Believing I will always STAND BY YOU trough any trouble…

I will TAKE YOUR HANDS … and help you ‘till you can STAND UP!

Please DON”T SAY GOODBYE…

Because I can’t be SURVIVOR without your love…

YOU ONLY LOVE for me….

POEM about LOVE

One by one…

I linked up the stars above you…

Staring into them and put it in your eyes…

So, your eyes will always bright….

Just like million stars in the dark night sky…

I will always protect you...

I will guide you trough the darkness and the bitter moment of the life...

I will share the beautiful and the sweetest moment of the life….

 Just for you, and only you…

I still remember when we meet at the first time... Do you still remember it?

You bring my colour back to me…

You bring the light for shining my life…

You’re promising happiness that I seek…

You thought me what the true love is…

You help me to find my purpose in this world…

And I feel thankful for everything that you gave to me….

I love you, forever and ever….

POEM ABOUT RELATIONSHIP 

Every time I see your smile…

Every time I see your bright eyes…

Every time I heard your laugh…

That time, I know, I have falling in love with you…

   

                   If time can turn back…..

                   I’ll hold your hand close to mine…

                   And never let it go…

But I can’t see you now…

Something blinded and block my eyes from you…

I’ve try to scream your name out loud…

But you didn’t hear me and keep walking away from me…

Breaking my heart into a thousand piece…

     

                   As time goes by, this wound seems to heal...

                   And my heart comes back to alive…

                   It doesn’t hurt anymore….

Sometimes, I bring my self to think how you look when you’re laughing….

But... I can’t even remember your face, your touch, your voice…

It seems like my memories about you was buried deep in my heart…

                  Maybe, next time or next life…

                  We can meet each other with smile hanging in our lips…

                  Saying hello to each other happily….

                  And promising a new sheet in our life…..